FJ Blog

WHY do people do things and/or allow things to happen to them?? WHY!!!??? You can do something that seems harmless and change someones life forever!! FOREVER!! That's right You're perspective of the world can change by the actions of some one even if you're not involved. Something was brought to my attention this evening, something that dosn't involve me directly.. and depending on how you look at it dosn't involve me at all. I realy diddn't need this on me a mere 12 hours before my exam. I pray that the Lord guides me through this and that I not go insane. I cant understand it. I've lost respect for someone, I've lost..........well, I don't knoiw.. I know there is some one out that that will never learn. Oh and on a slightly unrelated note.. be careful what you wish for.. it may come true.. It may not be the result thats so bad but often the process of recieving it can be heck.

On another note I have an exam in a mere 11 hours. Wish me luck. Your prayers are appreciated. As soon as I get done blogging I'm going down to the north study lounge and I'm gonna look over stuff.

One last thing.. I made a new back ground for my blog page (that you are looking at right now) some time ago.. however, merc lost the file and I'll have to resend it (it's ok Merc I don't hold it against ya. ) anyway, i don't have it here on this hard drive.. and I hope that I diddn't delete it... anyway, I will be resending it to merc this weekend and all of you can ennjoy it.

It's the saturday before dead week. Obviously thre's a reason they call it dead week and I never could be sure what the oficial reason was. but one thing is for sure. The campus is dead. Durring dead week, no instrucots can give us exams or quizes without at least several weeks of notice. Most, if not all long term reports and assignments are due this week. and the week after this one.? Exams! although I'm taking 4 classes I only have 2(and a half sortof) final exams. One class has no final exaam and another class gives an option to take half o the final at midterm and the other half monday of dead week. I took this option. So this is my plight. I have a final on monday. My best friend turned 21 yesterday. He calls me up (we're both single by the way.. oddly we're completely different people and we seem to remain best friends and have similar woman problems. although he's more the extrovert and can pick up women in a shorter period of time than I seem to be capable of .. then again he's not going to school and has no job.) Anyway... he says " you wanna go clubbin? " I'm like Hell yeah!! and then something hits me.. I thinik it's called responcibility.. or something similar.. and I lament my exam early monday morning. I'd be hard pressed to study for it and wake up at 6:30 AM om Monday if I went out and partied tonight. so... here I am. in my cell of a dorm room blogging. I have a pile of laundry and a Soil Science.book.. Fun fun. But yes, I am single and yes I am looking. I will be living in Lincoln this summer. I'll be taking classes. and hopefully find a job.

Did I mention I'm single? and good looking? Not aonly am I single but I'm somone's fall back crutch. it sucks.. sucks sucks sucks. In two week I'll move out of this room and my phone number will be changed.. As far as she is concern I will have fallen off the face of the earth. Things are cool..

So. Here I am. Single.. and buried in work and laundry. I am alive.. and living. I only have one last concern. My macro ecomics class. If I do not recive a D or higher in that class I will not be able to continue going to school. In short it will be the end of the world for me. If I do not blog in the next 2 weeks just pray for me. Hopefully I'll be studying or doing something equily constructive with my time.

I'd greatly appreaciate any feed back and support. you can e-mail me at farmerjoe@mercuryfrog.com I won't be able to reply untill the middle of next week but I will read it all .. so drop me a line if you do read this. Some one's gotta be reading it.

Well, tomorrow it's the fist Sunday after the first full moon after lent. I'm gonna get up and go to church and come home and gorge myself on marshmallow chicks. I should be working right now.. but I felt the need to blog. what shall I blog about? Well for one thing I came to the realization that if you can do something that joe blow can do .. people may not pay you to do it. Why invest money in it? I dunno. I need to leap ahead. I want to expand. I uh.. aww screw it. I'm just gonna get my BS and be a lab monkey .. or something. hmm that dosn't sound right.. ok.. greese monkey.. is a mechanic.. web monkey.. is a lowly dot-commer.. uh.. lab monkey.. hmm dosn't sound right some how. Brass monkey? ok I give up. time to get back to work. Oyasuminasai.

some things are not cool. some things are not good. some things are bad. extremely bad. In many matter of ways I will cease to exitst if things don't turn out. Things are bad. I'm nervous. I havn't blogged nearly all week, I've been busy. well, wish me luck, it's gonna be a rough ride these next few weeks.

All things are cool. Things are good. I have a new pair of pants. I saw a good frined today. I thought she had fallen off the face of the earth. I may have new client!! You know what merc?? if you're reading this right now e-mail me I need you to do some thing for me. I will blog more this week than I have last week but right now I'm gonna go get some food.