FJ Blog

Ever wish you could make time stand still? This is one of those times for me.. I wish I just had a few days I so I could sort things out... I don't need to talk to any body, I don't need to go any where I just need to sleep, study, and reflect on things. These next 4 weeks are gonna be heck.

I have a boil on my head. I always get them in the same place and no where else on my body. At eye level beteen my eye and my side burn area. clocer to the sideburn I guess.. I only get them when I'm under lots of stress, why am I always supriesed when I get one. For those of you too lazy to click the link, a boil is an infection of a hair follicle. Well, now I know what it is.. but why does stress bring it on? I see no reference to stress in any of these medical sites.

Well, Now what? Without going into detail.... Things were not as they seemed. Was it all too good to be true? It must have been. Where do I go from here? It's hard to say. What the hell do I want any way? I think I need to figure that out first. So, this morning I knew what I wanted, (at least I thought I did, and I thought I had a good chance of getting it) But now I realize, that the goal, has been moved. Shall I continue to pursue it? I don't think that would be wise. I will sit. I will sit and perhaps things will come around. There is realy nothing else I can do.

Wow, tuesday allready. I'm dead. My sleep schedule is all messed up, but at least I made it to class on time today. I have Lab in just under an hour. I'm gonna get a bite to eat, get my butt to class, and come back and take a shower. then a nap then I go to work .. If you need to contact me this week the best time would be while I'm at work. I love my job. If it's another slow night I'll watch the rest of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. Not a bad movie.

This has been a verry long day.

OK, I'm gonna buy myself a camera tonight, I'm also gonna get some accessories to go with it. The camera has 2 mb of built in memory, and it comes with a set of batteries so I'll be able to use it right out of the box. but, if I want to get any real use out of it I'll need all this stuff:

One 64 MB compact flash card $70
One USB flash card reader $30
One way cool looking Compact flash card vault (to protect the cards when I travel from heat and radiation and the like) $20
A NiMH battery charger W/ 4 AA batteries. $30
2 more 4 packs of AA NiMH batteries $15 ea.

another item I'd like to get is an AC adapter for the camera, since I'll have the flash card reader I really don't need it. I'll save the $40 that would cost me and use it to buy the 2 packs of batteries mentioned above.

The camera its self is $119 refurbished... I'm getting it at compgeeks.com I think it sells at bestbuy for like $150 so, I'm buying 64 mb of memory rather than 32 with the money I'm saving. I''ll be buying everything else at TigerDirect except for the extra batteries that I'll get at best buy or wherever else I can find them.

Well, it's 12:00 and I'm supposed to be off of work any second now. I have a final exam in my ASL class, In one hour. wish me luck.

Blogger had some weird problem.. so I'm gonna blog again and only kinda re hit on what I bloged about earlier.

I did get my presentation thingy pretty much done last night. :) I'm fairly confident about it.

My plans for my California trip are starting to take shape. I will get a chance to visit Manda :) I'm looking forward to it. I'm sure she is too.
My parents have got me all paranoid. I grew up in a tiny village in Nebraska, and I'm going to CA by myself. I'm telling myself I have nothing to worry about. But now I'm wondering if I'm being naive. I'm gonna borrow Sol's catch phrase and do what I would do if I were not afraid.

I got paid today !! :) and i'm gonna go spend it asap. now what shall I spend it on? My server? The camera I want? My air fare? I can only spend it on one of the above. I'll have to wait like 2 weeks to spend any more. I do have money by the way, it's just that I can't live with spending it untill I know I'm getting more in. oh man.. Now that I think about it. that next pay check won't come soon enough. I leave for CA in about 5 weeks. I need to buy Air fare and my camera in advance. so that means my server goes to the bottom of my shopping list *gasp* that puts my new camera at the top :) . I'll buy it this weekend. :-P I'm not gonna be able to sleep for a while.

My fortune cookies are freakin me out. this is what they told me (in order)
"This is the month when ingenuity stands high on the list"
"A good time to finish up old tasks"
"An admirer finds you very charming"

I'm expecting one to say "You eat too many fortune cookies" any time now.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! >:( to heck with Internet explorer 6 ! I have to use the stupid comptuer labs which are packed by the way. because the damn quicktime plugin and IE 6 don't like each other.

Lyrics... speak.. mind.. soul.... here's a few:

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, it surely
means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune, but
I hear the voices say

Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you

OK, I've decided that I'm going to take a trip to CA. I should have decided this earlier, but at least I was thinking about it. The whole thing is going to cost me about $400 (as I can tell so far) and that's realy all the money I'm going to be able to spend. The plan so far is to hang with merc he said he'll give me a place to crash (as if I'll be getting any sleep paaarty!) I don't know what I'm going to do yet, or who I'm gonna see or spend time with, so, if you're reading this and you want to see my in person drop me a line asap. My little adventure will take place Sat. Aug. 18 through Wed. Aug 22. so I've got 3 and a half days to fill. last night I realized that this thing is a mere 6 weeks away.. creepy. I gotta start getting ready. The hardest part will be telling my parents where I'm gonna be those 4 days. and getting some one to drop me off at the air port.

Some people are real jerks. This guy calles up work, and says something or other about unlocking a room (standard procedure so far) He mentions that he can open the room from there. (I think this is a bit odd but oh well I'm new here he must have some kind of administrative access or something) I say well that's fine, I'll come by and unlock it. and he says "well how long will that take?" I give him some crap answer (I just woke up half an hour ago give me a break) What I should have said was that it won't take long I'll be there to open and disarm the door yada yada yada. so I go over there.. don't take the key with me. I'm looking around don't see any body. so I'm thinking where is this guy if he's in such a damn hurry. so, I run back down the hall and get the key. I get there and I can hear that the alarm is sounding. he comes around the corner and says "It's Beeping!!" (in an angry tone) as soon as I get the door unlocked, the alarm goes off. Great. so I enter the code as fast as I can but I know that it's too late anyway. The police will come, no big deal. It's happend before. But that guy was a real jerk. He says "I thought you were going to be waiting here to disarm it!" Well, there are two entrances to the room on opposite sides of the room. and there is a 3rd enterance from another room but that door is not to be used. I now see what he ment by he can open it himself. He used that 3rd door and set off the motion detctor. Jerk. He was too damn impatient to wait for some one. He's going on my crap list.

Well, another 4th of July is over. I drank some beer, ate some steak, and blew stuff up.

Yesterday, I found out that my best freind from high school, is gonna be a daddy. His woman is about 6 months along. I'm happy for him.. *sigh* he's not married. in fact, He was engaged to this girl, and about 2 months ago they broke up. now they're back together, and they'll be getting married. soon I suppose. they were supposed to be getting married in August of this year.. hmmm . I better save up for a tux rental. I know he won't read this so I can say . his fiance is a slut. Oddly her parents don't like him.. well my friend is the best that that whore is gonna get. She allready has one daughter from another guy. Oh well I wish them both only the best.

On another note. Merc dosn't like the idea of Frog eye salad. Belive me that's the name I diddn't make it up.

blah. allergies today. why today? I hope it's allergies. I can't afford to be sick. although with my stress level and lack of sleep it'd be no surprise.

my job is cool, this really cute girl came up.. I just new she needed to print call it psychic ability. (why else would she approach me on a day like this..) anyway. I send her document through. and I give her the can I help you look, I start to say. Can I... and she mentions that she sent a file to print.. the printer starts doing it's thing *whiirrrr* and I say .. "..your card...?" she says "oh yeah", giggles, walks back to her computer gets a punch card out of her backpack, brings it over, I punch it and she says "thank you". and now I'm getting paid to blog about it. I get paid for this ha ha ha ha ha.. I'd take the opportunity to meet all the cute girls for free, it's sitting here and blogging about it that they they need to pay me to do.

on a side note.. I just used bloggers new spell check feature for the firt time.. blog is not in there by default.. I thought that was funny.. hmmm I wonder what I'm high from... it wasn't that funny. I need more sleep.

It's tuesday. I'm going to google.com and looking for homicide reasources. I was awoken by crappy music at about 5:30 AM. I was this cloce to picking up a blunt object and cracking a skull. I think the phone would have worked well. not only does it have a metal plate on the bottom but the handset makes a nice little club and with that cord it can be used like one of those midevil ball and chain things. :) Have I mentioned that there are two closets in the room? Have I also mentioned that the bastard has his stuff in both of them? Also that I asked him (nicely) to remove his stuff from the closet after I moved in.. (he's not smart enough to realize that I may want to use my closet, sure it was fine that he used it the 3 weeks he was there before I moved in, but it never occured to him that a roomate may be a human being also.)

about my previous post.. I don't feel so bad for skipping that party. it was a hour and a half away. and that sick feeling.. well I belive it was something i ate.. damn dorm food bleagh..ya know.. there is just no good "emoticon" for 'I think I'm gonna hurl'

I got invited to a party last night. the party is today. I have to be in Blair by 1:00.. it's 11:50 right now, I can't make it there in time. All night something strange was holding me back, as if I was afraid. .. afraid of what? my friends? having something to do? This is not like me. I feel like I'm letting them down. I feel sick. the party was here by the way