FJ Blog

After reading Sol's most recent post I've realized I need to get away. I'm thinking perhaps a semester at Gallaudet would be a good choice for me. Living in washington DC and being ingulfed in a language other than my native tounge would be interesting.

Update: what if I did this for like a semester or something..

Why do the words "You can't have it turned up that [loud]" hurt more than "You have to be more responcible".

I have decided that I am ill. mentally not physically. There is no other explanation.

It's Sunday. I'm at work. We're open late tonight.. I'm putting in 8 hours today (yay money)

I'm increadibly stressed out right now. I'm not in a panic.. but my mind seems to have shut down. I so need some time off. I have a final tuesday, and a final the tuesday after that.. and a huge paper due on thursday, and a heck of a lot of stuff due in between. so.. I should be working my butt off but I'm not. I just can't stay focused

I think my hearing is continuing to get much much worse. It's hard for me to tell but It's clearly worse than it was a year ago. Take it from me, going deaf is no fun.

Merc told me that my site, recieves 3500/mo. that dosn't seem right some how.. that's around 100 hits a day. if you read my blog let me know, if I hear from real people then I'll update it more often. lately I've been updating it about once a week. I'll update it every other day or so if I know people are reading. my biggest referrers are Claire, and Chaz.

what else can I blog about? I don't know. In an hour and a half I go home. I think I'll shower.. and I should do home work so hopefully I'll be able to work on that. I hate life right now.. can't really explain why.

Update: If you'd like to contact me send e-mail to herb7000@hotmail.com

It's Thursday. (yay) This has been a heck of a long week. The semester is winding down. There is tomorrow, then one week of class.. Then "Dead Week" Then Finals week. I only have two finals this semester (yay). One of them is during dead week and the other is Tuesday of Final's week.

I was sitting here at work calculating my grades so far. I'm getting a B or B+ in my english comp class. I'm getting at least a C in my EDPS class. (hoping I can pull off a B or heck even an A.. but I dunno.. I don't have any numbers to calculate my grade) I'm getting a B in my Theatre class. (There is one more exam in that class... I really need to get better than a 83% so I don't slump to a B-) In my ASL class I'm getting a B+ I could be getting an A- or an A but noooo.. I have to screw up and get a 70% on a paper that was 5% of the final grade. (It's not likely that I'll get an A in the class I'd need an A+ on the final, I can hope for an A- though) In my History class, I'm getting a C. I know with absolute certainty that my current grade is a C because there have only been two assignments, it's not hard to find the average of two grades. There is only one assignment left. Each assignment (a non-cumulative exam) is worth 1/3 of our final grade. Now, this means that in order to get a C or higher I need to get a 73% or higher on this exam.

I don't want to get a C-. The C- is an odd animal. it's not "failing", but guess what.. It's not passing. A C- is NOT a passing grade here at the university of Nebraska. To add insult to injury, you are not allowed to retake the class for grade replacement if you get a C-. If you get a D+ you can retake the class and have the grade replaced, but not if you get that damn C-. The C- is the evilest of all grades. Especially this year, because it's brand new. Any one who gets a C- this year is really being mocked. It's the universities way of saying "Ha ha if you would have taken this class last year you would have passed ha ha ha-ha." And then as sort of a boobie prize they give you this weird ugly thing that you can't ever get rid of and if you get enough of them they put you on academic probation.

Also strange is the A+. The elusive A+ .. I've only earned one while here at UNL. You don't get any reward for earning an A+. There is no difference between the A and the A+ ... I'm not sure how I feel about that. I know I don't hate it like I hate the damn C-

grrrr... stupid server is still down... I don't know what its problem is. I havn't had time to look at it yet.... my guess is the stupid time change... it stopped working last time because of the f-ing time change and if I had to guess I'm guessing this is what the problem is now. ugh. stupid windows 98. All I've done with the server is rebooted it. A reboot should have been enough to make everything go again. I can't bleeping access the darn thing. *sigh*

I'm debating going to Beemer tonight. I have to see a play this eveining (for extra credit actually).... in about 30 min actually, so I'm killing time by updating my blog in the union.. I have a lot of laundry to do this weekend... a lot! I'm wearing my last clean pair of underswear, well .. nevermind.. and the shirt I'm wearing.. well it's not smelley so it's sorta clean. At least the body underneith the clothing is clean :) I may have put off doing laundry but I have still been showering. My dad's side of the family will be celebrating Easter this weekend. I dunno if I really want to go. *shrug* won't really be any one there that's my age... and those who are well not like they'll want to talk to me. way back in November (I think) when my family lumped thanksgiving and Xmas together, I got pretty bored. I got asked about California a lot. I mean people asked me how my trip was. that was kinda cool.. My uncle Charlie and aunt Pam have been to CA several times and they told me they quite enjoyed places such as The Gettey. Also, in the conversation the internet came up (how could it not?) and I casually mentioned my blog/website. I always get a laugh when I share my domain name. I think it was a good choice. I don't think any one in my family ever reads it though.

Well, that cute girl from my ASL class just walked by.. that was kinda cool, I guess,,, we exchanged glances, and "Hi"s she diddn't stop to talk to me.. hmm oh well.. I wonder what she's up to. That reminds me... Claire was gonna give me some pointers on style scritps. well here's a subtle way to remind her... it's not such a big deal tthough, I need to get my stupid server working again and more reliable... I'd use Linux instead of win98 but I only have 24 mb or RAM in the darn thing.

I got a B on my most recent English comp assignment. Not too bad. It must have been pretty well written because it sucked in a few ways. I would have been happier with an A but considerig I worked on it mostly the morning it was due (again) I fared pretty well. On the next .. and last assignment in that class I will start a bit earlier. it's not due untill the 2nd of May so it won't be too hard to get a head start. The assignment is to choose a feature length film of Interest to us, and write a paper commenting about ethical or moral issues within the movie. . if you're aware of the past assignments in that class you can see the trend... I'm thinking of doing "Ferris Beuler's Day Off": the previous assignment was for a social or legal issue, I went with "The Blues Brothers" and the one before that the theme was gender issues. I went with "MontyPython and the Holy Grail" that was an interesting paper. I've been getting Bs in that class.. so, I'm gonna probably pull of a B in the course.. I hope I can get an A on the last paper.. Getting an A- would be pretty cool.

It's Thursday.. woo hoo... This has been one heck of a week! On tuesday I discovered that I had to do a 4 - 5 page paper on Alexander Graham Bell. Aparently it was assigned several weeks ago.. I must have been absent the day it was assigned. It's due this afternoon. bleagh! I've gotten a good start on it.. and I'm hoping that I'll do ok on it. The instructor is not very good with her English skills, and she'll be looking for a few main points that she wants us to hit. so... even if it's not quite 4 or 5 pages .. and even if it's not the best written paper, as long as I hit the right stuff, I should do fine. The paper is worth about 5% of my final grade... this is my ASL class, so I need to do well. I really hope I pull off an A in that class... I so need an A. I've been doing ok on the quizes in the class... getting low A's thus far... (except the last one I got a low B :( ) those are worth 40% of the grade... and then there is the final.. that's worht 20% .. I'm nervous about that. and finnally there is the story telling thing.. bleah.. we all have to tell the story of the Tortise and the Hare. in ASL.. fun.. I guess.

in other things. my server is down. bleagh.. I noticed it was down tuesday, but I havn't rebooted the machine.. this morning, when I was taking a shower, it occured to me that the server is still down. It kinda sucks that it keeps going down. It went down saturday, I thought that it may have been due to the time change . o o O ( grr damn time change ) and well why it went down after the weekend I dunno. I'm glad that I don't have anything mission critical on it. over this summer I hope to make the damn little thing more reliable.

it's been a while since I blogged last.. here goes. I've been sick as a dog lately. I came down with some awful thing saturday evening and it hit me harder than hard Sunday night and monday. I thought I was over it but nope.. it's still there.. I hope I don't pass it to any one... I can't for the life of me figure out where I caught it. my only guess is that the virus was dormant in my system waiting for a drop in my imune system. I'm so glad that they make 500 count bottles of ibuprofin. I may not ever use them all but it's been so nice to ahve that peace of mind that I have a huge stock pile of pain killer. (yay)

In other news Merc and Ong are engaged.. everybody now .... "Awwwwww"

and this morning the second thing that went through my mind is Whoa that wind is f@#$ing cold. darn Nebraska weather.